Stigma Against People with Bipolar Disorder—Medications, Diagnoses, and Language

Four products I use to fight seroquel side effects.

With an illness that is volatile and unpredictable by definition/diagnosis, it isn’t as simple as “just take your pills in the blister pack, like I take my little heart pills.” Yes, I try to faithfully take my meds in the blister pack, and on schedule. But it’s not enough, and it’s not that simple. I’m trying to be proactive about my health, especially for my own safety. So, for example,…

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New Diagnosis—BPD comorbid BD

Yesterday, I found out that in the psyche ward, borderline personality disorder was added to my diagnoses. I have hurt feelings now. 😉 But seriously, it’s unfortunate that I was informed by a social worker instead of by a doctor. Now I’m wondering whether I’m just BPD, or BPD + BD. Either way, I’ll be getting the meds and the DBT now. I’m still confused though.

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Update from Psych Ward

I just got out of solitary confinement. I was 17 hours in there. Because all weekend I was figuratively assaulted and physically touched in many uncomfortable ways by a female patient who thinks she’s Jesus Christ, a personal friend of Adolf Hitler, etc. She’s terrifying everyone, especially me, and the nurse staff keep tolerating it. So on my first 3hr pass, I found the bravery to dial 911 from my…

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The Best Part of the Day When You are Bipolar Depressed

If you have been depressed for two years, you probably doubt whether you will ever get feeling better. Patience is difficult. Your friends tell you about CBT and prescription medications that are helping with their depression, but you are too aware that bipolar depression is more organic and resistant to CBT, and that you are not allowed certain anti-depressant dosages since you are bipolar. It is important to not add…

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Common Misunderstandings about People with Bipolar Disorder

This has taken too long to type up. I will add more when I can. If we seem okay lately (and even say so), that does not mean that we are necessarily doing or feeling well.Many of us have unconsciously developed tremendous skills at hiding our pain, probably due to feelings of guilt, a need to be perceived as ‘normal,’ and a fear of how others might exasperate our problems…

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I Haven’t Been Getting Out Much


Why have I been having a hard time showing up at church or driving to the grocery store? My mood instability and PTSD symptoms are all over the map due to a reduction of clonazepam (more reducing to come), and reactionary increases in antipsychotic meds. I’m not the only person going through this. My psychiatrist says I’m doing better than most of his other bipolar patients in the clonazepam pickle.…

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