Update from Psych Ward

I just got out of solitary confinement. I was 17 hours in there. Because all weekend I was figuratively assaulted and physically touched in many uncomfortable ways by a female patient who thinks she’s Jesus Christ, a personal friend of Adolf Hitler, etc. She’s terrifying everyone, especially me, and the nurse staff keep tolerating it. So on my first 3hr pass, I found the bravery to dial 911 from my…

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The Best Part of the Day When You are Bipolar Depressed

If you have been depressed for two years, you probably doubt whether you will ever get feeling better. Patience is difficult. Your friends tell you about CBT and prescription medications that are helping with their depression, but you are too aware that bipolar depression is more organic and resistant to CBT, and that you are not allowed certain anti-depressant dosages since you are bipolar. It is important to not add…

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I Haven’t Been Getting Out Much


Why have I been having a hard time showing up at church or driving to the grocery store? My mood instability and PTSD symptoms are all over the map due to a reduction of clonazepam (more reducing to come), and reactionary increases in antipsychotic meds. I’m not the only person going through this. My psychiatrist says I’m doing better than most of his other bipolar patients in the clonazepam pickle.…

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